Friday, March 10, 2017

A "Journey" That Past : Part 2

It's already 2017, a new year begin but already on it's second months, February. A month left without us knowing, time flies so fast, without us realize, how great something is, how important a person can be, how hard life can turn you to, how easy forgetting and be forgotten was...  Me, who still here, wandering, and still searching...the reasons I need to keep moving...and also, the most crucial part ever...already 29th this year! Ohhhh Maiiii! Ohhh maiiii!! nahh, forget it, age is just a number...chill! -_-" #ifIcouldreallyforgetit

Then, let's continue...

Yes, I'm still alive, I can feel that I'm still alive...I still can breath even it's hard, I still can talk even it's hurt, I still can think, even it's too messy inside... But, I keep on reciting my syahadah, because I don't know, if I can make it through to the Hospital, if I still have the times to be forgiven...I'm scared, too scared! Allahuuu T___T

But alhamdulillah, Syukur pada Allah, everyone being so nice, everyone being fast, in just 10 minutes, I already arrived at Hospital Selayang. I'm saved that night, thanks to everyone who helped, SYUKUR! Allah masih beri peluang Ke-2 T___T


Friday, February 10, 2017

A "Journey" That Past : Part 1

Assalamualaikum and greetings from deep of my heart... After some times, here I'm again with some pieces of stories to tell... But again, how am I getting the opportunity to "write"?? Of course, while waiting for Miss L finishing her meeting..haha... Still the same reason why I have "this" time alone to write... I'm not being anyone else, but I can feel that I'm being different... I love to write, but not anymore... I love to think, but it feels hard and yet make me wonder...what had happened to me? But than, Allah gave something for me to realize, for me to analyze, for me to STOP, and think more... Some experience, some journey I must go through...Even if I won't to... That's how affectionate Allah's Love is, how fortunate for them whose walking through this journey to Him... 

Let's get back to the "story".. An experience I've never want to happen, I've never imagine... 4th December 2016, a date that change me all inside out... I've been in motorcycle accident at MRR2 at approximately 0830 pm that night.. I'm on my way to my office mate's house for a party with one of my other office mate. Luckily, we rode a different motorcycle that night. I dunno how or why I can skidded of to the side of the road. What did I remember just the thought while skidding to the side of the road thinking "Owh, aku accident ke ni?" then "Bump!" tertiarap atas jalan...-_-"

While that happened, all I know was trying to breath in but couldn't... I keep on trying but can't, then all I can do is I'm shouting "Ash-hadualla-ilaha-illallah" with all my might while remembering all the faces I love, all the name I know, all the person I've sin... and thinking "Am I going to die now? At this very moment? At this state? At this place?" Then I heard the voices of the crowd, someone calling my name... Then I try to roll up, and I manage to breath in and out even it's kind of short and hurts so much, but then I felt relieved. "Aku masih hidup" T_____T

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